I can’t tell you how many times I have stopped and started this post. (Or is it really started and stopped? The latter makes more sense to me, but the former sounds more familiar as a saying.) I am a perfectionist in so many ways that if I can’t get it to be extraordinary I don’t really want to do it. This goes for pretty much everything from arts and crafts to writing a paper (or blog post, for that matter). I usually put so much pressure on myself that I get start fright (the inability to start anything, kind of like stage fright). Or maybe it’s more of a fear of the blank page? Either way, I stress out so much that I don’t start until it’s almost due and then I don’t have time to be a perfectionist. However, that means I don’t always (or ever) do my best work. When I was in college, I know this drove my “proof-reader” crazy aka my mom. I’m so grateful that my mom would accomdate this very bad habit and I know that it’s only thanks to her that I managed to make decent grades in college.
Even when I do start things there are so many ideas running around in my mind that if I put something to the side to “finish it later” it won’t get finished until somewhere between years from now and never. I think that’s one of the most important things I have realized about myself this year. Once I start a project I no longer constantly dream and tweak and design it, instead I forget about it and move onto the next thing. But I can finish a project if I work on it continuously. It’s almost like at the beginning I can see the final project but once I get bogged down in the middle I can’t image an end. However, when I get close to the end, I’ll keep myself up to 3 in the morning trying to finish it (because I always think “just 10 more minutes and I’ll be done” for hours). I’m super horrible at accurate time management (or whatever you would call knowing how long something takes you–time estimates?). In the end it’s all the same because bad time estimates definitely equal bad time management. This chick is not afraid to say she has zero comprehension of time. D definitely acts as not only my husband, but also my semi-personal assistant in helping think out commitments and appointments. I have been constantly overbooking myself lately.
Anyway, I’m blogging here because I’m hoping that if I continuously post here I’ll be reminded to keep my photography blog updated as well. I have been taking photos for church events and have been loving it. I’m not sure if it’s because I get to photograph adorable children or what, but I think that’s a big part of it. I get to help direct the kids some, but mostly I love just capturing their personalities. So if you know any families that would like some authetic images of their child’s stage in life you can contact me through this blog or my photography blog.
Speaking of photography blog it has gotten a small makeover. I changed the theme to something a bit more elegant. It was no small task to find something minimal that still showed off my images. I’m not 100% happy with the theme, but it will do for now. I shall be updating with some of my latest work–aka all the images I’ve created in the past six plus months. I’m sure at some point I’ll get some sort of system going or knowing me maybe I won’t, but I do want to start posting both here and on Anna Stanphill Photography at least once a week. We’ll see how it goes but you haven’t seen/heard the last of me yet. 😉
And because I can’t not post a photo or two with each blog post, here is an extremely recent image taken at Christ Covenant‘s community concert on Sunday, August 30.
Title: “Soul On Fire” by Third Day